This is just a short update of how I’ve been going since my last brain-vomit post, where I expressed the issues I was having with a close friend of mine. Firstly I’d like to say a huge THANK YOU to everyone who commented and gave me words of advice and encouragement. Your support is endless and I could not have asked for more. Also another THANK YOU for all the lovely comments on my latest pieces of writing. Recently I’ve been experimenting with writing prose (if you hadn’t noticed 😁) and writing longer pieces of poetry. It certainly does take more effort but the outcomes are always rewarding.
So despite all the overthinking with the issue I was having with Mitch, I decided not to take any action. I figured that giving myself some space was the best option, as I didn’t know what to do in the first place and that would just be another source of overthinking. Mitch did end up messaging me soon after to wish me happy new year, which was quite nice of him. For once it felt comforting to have someone think of me. Since then– regarding the issue– my brain has finally calmed down and at the moment I’ve been ok.
Again, I have a question to ask. This time it’s something out of curiosity, though it does bother me the tiniest little bit.
Do you dislike it when people have overly high expectations of you?
For example, Mitch (again) messaged me asking if I’d started studying for the coming school year. Before I could even reply, he said this:
“Yes ofc you have”
For some reason that niggled at me eevvveeerrr soooo slightly. It made me realise that I don’t like it when I receive praise or when people think of me highly…especially being asian. A lot of the time I’m really lazy and end up cramming last minute before assessments. Still, I do manage to pull out decent marks and I guess that’s why people don’t believe me when I describe my study habits. Every test they’ll always ask for my score expecting me to be top (or if not, near the top) of the class, and it does bug me. I think it’s got to do with my low self-confidence and how I always place myself on a lower pedestal than I deserve. Whenever I receive good results I’m never truly happy. To me, low scores are more constructive and give me a chance to reflect my mistakes.
Before I end this post, I’m now on Sarahah! For those that haven’t heard of it, Sarahah is a messaging service where you can send anonymous feedback/questions. I’ve always wanted to do a Q&A kind of thing but I know that some people don’t like to be identified when asking questions, and the WordPress contact section doesn’t allow that. Sarahah has also been known to be a hotspot for bullying, but surely the WordPress community is better than that 😉 I doubt that I’ll get any messages but if you have any questions or a nice comment you anonymously want to send me, please let me know! You can send me anything! If I have enough questions I’ll create a separate Q&A post…hopefully…
I’ll be gone now, have a good day/night wherever you are ❤️
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